Can I be honest with you all? When I decided to start blogging with LLN, I promised God that I would remain honest and relatable. So, in keeping with that promise, here I am writing a real blog post…
I struggled this week. I struggled to stay motivated, struggled to stay positive, struggled to write. I think we can all relate to having “just one of those days” or “just one of those weeks” and that is exactly how I felt this week; tired, both physically and mentally. I’m a single mother with a full time job and two part time positions, a blogger, a writer, a minister, and the list goes on. I wear many hats on a daily basis and sometimes I wear more than one simultaneously and there are so many more things I aspire to do and be. It’s safe to say I get weary sometimes. I’ve gotten used to my routine and my workload and most days it’s like second nature. However, I understand that I am only human and it’s natural to come to a moment in time when you need a breather.
I struggled this week. I struggled to stay motivated, struggled to stay positive, struggled to write.
Today, I meditated on Mathew 11:28-30 which says “come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
This is a verse I’ve heard before but I really wanted to understand it. I needed answers. I’m tired and I need a word! At first glance, I saw that God was proposing an exchange, “Give me what you have and you take what I have”. I thought, God that doesn’t help me! I want you to take some of this from me and I don’t want anything else! However, as I read further I realized the freedom in the rest of his words: “my yoke is easy and my burden is light”.
As I read this, I began thinking of the times I’ve carried groceries in the house with my son. I tell him to take the lightweight bags and I’ll take the heavy ones. I don’t want him to be weighed down, I don’t want him to struggle, I don’t want him to hurt himself. This act came without hesitation as I love my son and do not want him to carry more than he can bear. At that moment it all became simple; that’s what God does for us!
So then I got to thinking, “well God what is this lightweight stuff you’re giving me?” His response, “GRACE”.
2 Corinthians 12:9 states “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me.”
I tell him to take the lightweight bags and I’ll take the heavy ones. I don’t want him to be weighed down, I don’t want him to struggle,
Why carry stress, anxiety, busyness, pain, heartbreak, anger, frustration when you can hand it over to God and He will hand you grace? His grace is enough because, the moment we feel weak, His power is activated! What’s even better; 2 Corinthians goes on to encourage us to admit when we’re weak. It says to boast in your weakness so that the power of God will rest upon you. It’s okay to not be okay! It’s okay to feel weak sometimes. It’s okay to be honest and say God I’m feeling weak today, I need a little grace, I need Your power! Here God, take some of this so my spirit can rest. Not only is it okay, but He encourages it!
I know I know, some of you are probably reading this saying, that doesn’t change my situation, And you’re absolutely right! When I tell my son to take the lightweight bags, that doesn’t mean the heavy bags don’t have to go in the house, it means I’m there to help and that he can move forward knowing that I am handling what he can’t. How comforting is it to know that we have a partner that’s always handling the heavy stuff? Always working behind the scenes to make sure we’re okay and that things work out for our good! So if my job is stressing me out, I can’t stop working, but I can give God my stress and say God I need you to handle that today and I’m just going to keep working.
“Cast your cares on the Lord, and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.” Psalm 55:22
So today I gave God my stress, anxiety, frustration, and I just focused on living. I thank Him for His grace that has kept me and His mercy that sustains me, and I trust Him to work everything out even when I can’t see how.
Pray for me as I pray for you… I love you on purpose…